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Sunday, June 6th, 2004

Subject:Tell me you're name... Tell me your story
Time:7:22 pm.
Mood: productive.
I swear I'm still alive:)
Comments: 3 took them off - ban pants?.

Wednesday, May 19th, 2004

Subject:Nick fucked up:/
Time:11:16 pm.
Mood: guilty.
Road trippin’ with my two favorite allies
Fully loaded we got snacks and supplies
It’s time to leave this town
It’s time to steal away
Let’s go get lost
Anywhere in the u.s.a.
Let’s go get lost
Let’s go get lost

Blue you sit so pretty
West of the one
Sparkles light with yellow icing
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun

These smiling eyes are just a mirror for

So much as come before those battles lost and won
This life is shining more forever in the sun
Now let us check our heads
And let us check the surf
Staying high and dry’s
More trouble than it’s worth
In the sun

Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun

These smiling eyes are just a mirror for

In big sur we take some time to linger on
We three hunky dory’s got our snakefinger on
Now let us drink the stars
It’s time to steal away
Let’s go get lost
Right here in the u.s.a

Blue you sit so pretty
West of the one
Sparkles light with yellow icing
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun

These smiling eyes are just a mirror for
These smiling eyes are just a mirror for
Your smiling eyes are just a mirror for
Comments: ban pants?.

Monday, May 17th, 2004

Subject:CALIFORNIA!
Time:11:20 pm.
Mood: sore.
11.5 is TOO MUCH.
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Wednesday, May 12th, 2004

Subject:mmm multi tasking
Time:3:29 pm.
Mood: optimistic.
I'm sitting on the pot right now... god i love having a laptop. That is kindof lazy sounding though, taking a shit and typing on a computer at the same time.. heh. My car got egged last night. that was interesting.. it was parked outside karinas house and then when I left, there was egg on the side! woot.

We are going to california tommorow, we have to be at the airport at 5:30... i don't think i shall go to bed.
Comments: 2 took them off - ban pants?.

Sunday, May 9th, 2004

Subject:Ow.
Time:7:22 pm.
Mood: sore.
My neck and back hurt. alot. I was gone all weekend at a boyscout camp doing some stuff with the explorers (I was on the news! wee), but one of the events was to be an agressive crowd for the police explorers, and I volunteered as one of the primary agressors, so I got hit with fake battons alot.. and jabbed in the esophogus, and ran through pepper sprayish stuff.. that made your eyes lock up and for you to start coughing. good times. Other then that I'm really tired, and in dire need of a massage. I miss camping.
Comments: ban pants?.

Friday, May 7th, 2004

Subject:...
Time:11:23 am.
Mood: worried.
karina, I don't know where the hell you are. I went to your house.. you may have been sleeping, but i called like 15 times i swear, and pounded on all of your doors and threw rocks at your window; so if you were in there you didn't want anybody to know it. I just want to know that you are fine.. when i saw you at swim you looked like you were in a bad mood to end bad moods.. So please, call my phone and just let me know you are fine, because i won't be back until Sunday afternoon. I don't give a damn what you were doing or where you were, I just want to know you are fine. ok?
Comments: 1 took them off - ban pants?.

Thursday, April 29th, 2004

Subject:I have to pee
Time:12:42 am.
Mood: melancholy.
That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and snakes, an aeroplane -
Lenny Bruce is not afraid. Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn -
world serves its own needs, regardless of your own needs. Feed it up a knock,
speed, grunt no, strength no. Ladder structure clatter with fear of height,
down height. Wire in a fire, represent the seven games in a government for
hire and a combat site. Left her, wasn't coming in a hurry with the furies
breathing down your neck. Team by team reporters baffled, trump, tethered
crop. Look at that low plane! Fine then. Uh oh, overflow, population,
common group, but it'll do. Save yourself, serve yourself. World serves its
own needs, listen to your heart bleed. Tell me with the rapture and the
reverent in the right - right. You vitriolic, patriotic, slam, fight, bright
light, feeling pretty psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign tower. Slash and burn,
return, listen to yourself churn. Lock him in uniform and book burning,
blood letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate. Light a candle,
light a motive. Step down, step down. Watch a heel crush, crush. Uh oh,
this means no fear - cavalier. Renegade and steer clear! A tournament,
a tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions, offer me alternatives
and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I tripped a nice continental drift divide. Mount St. Edelite.
Leonard Bernstein. Leonid Breshnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester Bangs.
Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You symbiotic, patriotic,
slam, but neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine...fine...

So I guess i'm single now. Who saw that one comming?? meh. Life goes on (contrary to what the song thinks).
Comments: ban pants?.

Tuesday, April 27th, 2004

Subject:wee
Time:9:38 pm.
Mood: tired.
I think I broke my big toe. Not recently, i just think a week or three back i may have broken it, because its rather painful.. and doesn't crack like it usually does when it's painful. I'm mass tired... i think i shall go lay on my bed and accidentally fall asleep.. thats always fun!
Comments: ban pants?.

Saturday, April 24th, 2004

Subject:Ninja!
Time:10:05 am.
Mood: mellow.
Lazy morning. wee those are fun. I would have preffered to not sleep here, though. I don't know... I've been realizing lately that my bed is comfy and roolish. But still, else where is better;) hrm.. i don't know what else to type really.. had mexican food last night! hurrah. and I watched underworld.. yeah that was an extremely dumb movie. Talk about a matrix ripoff with all the special affects and even the scenenery. anywho, I have baseballish type practice at 1 i think, and then i work at three. weee how exciting. *does bored loser dance*
Comments: 2 took them off - ban pants?.

Friday, April 23rd, 2004

Subject:Gahh
Time:1:22 am.
Mood: exhausted.
You may have been waiting, you may have not been waiting.. we got in all hellof late, though. we had to stop in bismark north dakoda because somebody was dying or somthing. but that took forever. So i'm really tired now. But i'm home! hurrah. I'll see everybody tommorowish.
Comments: ban pants?.

Wednesday, April 21st, 2004

Subject:That is SO not your voice
Time:11:22 pm.
Mood: lonely.
I'm REALLY wanting to come home now.. because i cannot remember what you sound like. I'm gonna be in an uber (new word of the week... i konw its an old word, but i think its time for a comeback) bad mood until that time.. i guess we get back in at like 11 somthing on thursday? i'll be tired, but i won't be THAT tired.. if you still plan on being awake:) lemme know babe
Comments: ban pants?.

Monday, April 19th, 2004

Subject:here comes the rain again...
Time:10:48 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
I don't know... i'm feeling better i guess. I want to talk to you though... I've always hated it when people blew up and i didn't know why, so i guess i want to explain myself. You're cousin was on your sn today but no you.. you were in the other room. how sad. after tonight i don't know when i'll be able to be online again; we are going mobile i think. If we stay i'll have my internet connection, otherwise i don't know.
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Subject:my parents are buying me a pizza!
Time:7:18 pm.
Mood: calm.
Oh, they had flyers for skydiving lessons.. Nick is there.
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Subject:It was hot, now its windy, then there was thunder *CRASH* ahh! *runs, hides*
Time:6:19 pm.
Mood: calm.
So I spent my day at Skidmore College doing a variety of things. We listened to a phsychology professor give a lecture on "the self," and i think that the lecture combined with the student newspaper will make me come here. The dorms are coolio, the bar tender told me that, "yeah, i'll see you next year... Saratoga Springs doesn't card unless you're an asshole." hmm.. what else. Oh, HERE is the real reason i want to go here.. this was in the newspaper as somthing overheard in a dorm randomly: "Stupid pants! all opressing my genitals and shit" i mean cummon thats me.. i could so easily start my campeign to ban pants. So between that and the guy who put up a fence outside his dormroom window and sits there calling it his "yard," i think it'll be a good time. My Chesak essay for the week is the quote, "hell is other people," and i just had an idea, so i think i'm gonna go write it, i've got some down time.

I don't know if that was really what i was thinking when i said prove it, but it's a good start i guess. I'm feeling better... sometimes its good to escape from the world around, so you can see how insignificant alot of things are. still hurt, though.
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Saturday, April 17th, 2004

Subject:leaving, on a jet plane..
Time:10:57 pm.
Mood: crushed.
So here it is, just about 11:00 pm and I'm about to go to the airport. All i gotta say... I'm hurt. No call.. no text messege.. no lj post... didn't get online at all.. ouch. very ouch. I mean, when I very candidly say, "I'm stealing you tommorow night, because i won't get to see you for a week," and then you smile and say, "i don't have plans anyways," I mean it doesn't get any more obvious then that that i want to see you before i go.. Or at least talk to you. Know whats goin on. But no.. as it is, who knows where you are, or what you are doing, and frankly i don't know if I want to know. You can't care for me when it suits you. I'm sorry it just doesn't work that way. I mean, there are a million and one reasons why you couldn't see me tonight... I can think of very few why you couldn't take the time to return my call, or even (heres a thought) take the initative to call me yourself!

Oh, and on exastentialism.. I'll just tell you what it is in a nut shell. Exastentialism is the philosophy that people are inharently alone in the world. They are 100% free, alone, and ultimately in charge of their own destiny. For example: You can choose to be in slavery or not, however the consiquences are grave, if you choose not to be, you probably die. However, it is still your choice. Now, a true exastentialist makes an action knowing full well that whatever action they take, there will be consiquences. maybe good, maybe bad. you just have to be willing to deal with those consiquences based on your action. So, you made the choice to not get ahold of me in even the most remote of ways, barring of course, you being in the hospital, or somthing very similar, and since you made that choice, you as a human must face the consiquences, good or bad. So yeah, i'm hurt. nobody makes these choices for you. I had a good night planned for you, seeing as i wasn't gonna get to see you on your birthday. My family was having a party for my cousins, both on the 18th like you, and you were invited.. oh well. You need to show me that you want to be with me.. because this is getting really old. You control you; and no one else.

p.s. I'm still hurt.
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Subject:I just feel like doing a dance dammit
Time:10:27 am.
Mood: mellow.
when you sleep where do your fingers go?
what do your fingers know
what do your fingers show
where do your fingers go

when you sleep
do they tremble on the edge of the bed
or do you fold them neatly by your head
do they clench like claws against your own skin
when you're living your day al over again


when you sleep
when you sleep where do your fingers go?
what do your fingers know
what do your fingers show
where do your fingers go

do they play guitar in a latin bar
are they strangers or lovers
do they drive your car
are they swimming submissively
sex acts of life
or just cutting through jello with a very sharp knife

now zeus was a womanizer
always on the make
but hera usually punished her that zeus was one to take

when you sleep where do your fingers go?
are they pulling out weeds from the dusty soil
but then never rewarded with the fruits of their toil
are they scratching their nails on the chalkboards of death
only seeking attention when everyone in the room has left

when you sleep
when you sleep where do your fingers go?
what do your fingers know
what do your fingers show
where do your fingers go


when you sleep

do they tremble on the edge of the bed

or do you fold them neatly by your head</c>

*performs jig*
Comments: ban pants?.

Thursday, April 15th, 2004

Subject:That was a looonggg movie
Time:11:55 pm.
Mood: nerdy.
Haha oh god, I would have given a trip round the stars to have a camera right before you got out of the car... oh jesus i haven't seen a more hilarious expression in my life i swear it. On a tangent, cool graphs.. if you have a graphing calculator, i stole some equations from calculus and it looks neet-o, especially if you're an idiot like me!!! they are: .5sin(pie)x and x^2-2x with a window of (just go down the line dammit) -3, 5, 1, -3, 2, 1, 1. It really only looks cool if you have someone to show it too and be like here this is for you. god i'm a nerd.. i'll just shut up now. *pantses you*
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Wednesday, April 14th, 2004

Subject:Text messeges suck.
Time:9:51 pm.
Mood: irritated.
Yeah that was supposed to be sarcastic. i guess it didn't really transmit in the messege.
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Sunday, April 11th, 2004

Subject:I have a big nose :/
Time:11:45 pm.
Mood: dorky.
Colby: penelope cruz has the sexiest voice ever
Me: yeah, its pritty damn sexy
Me: what are you watching with her in it?
Colby: i saw gothika last night
Me: how was it
Colby: like, i don't think a blowjob would be necessary from her, she could just put her head down and talk to my penis and i'd cum
Comments: 2 took them off - ban pants?.

Saturday, April 10th, 2004

Subject:I'm tired
Time:12:42 am.
Mood: nervous.
you make me nervous sometimes. I trust you, but you make me nervous sometimes:p
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