Oh, and on exastentialism.. I'll just tell you what it is in a nut shell. Exastentialism is the philosophy that people are inharently alone in the world. They are 100% free, alone, and ultimately in charge of their own destiny. For example: You can choose to be in slavery or not, however the consiquences are grave, if you choose not to be, you probably die. However, it is still your choice. Now, a true exastentialist makes an action knowing full well that whatever action they take, there will be consiquences. maybe good, maybe bad. you just have to be willing to deal with those consiquences based on your action. So, you made the choice to not get ahold of me in even the most remote of ways, barring of course, you being in the hospital, or somthing very similar, and since you made that choice, you as a human must face the consiquences, good or bad. So yeah, i'm hurt. nobody makes these choices for you. I had a good night planned for you, seeing as i wasn't gonna get to see you on your birthday. My family was having a party for my cousins, both on the 18th like you, and you were invited.. oh well. You need to show me that you want to be with me.. because this is getting really old. You control you; and no one else.
p.s. I'm still hurt.